My early sobriety is a little hazy. So I might have had cravings, but I don’t think I did. I was so messed up emotionally that I didn’t think much about anything except that my life was hopeless. My wife had left me and there didn’t seem to be much point in living.

I was told that if I worked the steps and did a thorough job that I would be restored to sanity so I started on the world’s longest 4th step. By the time I had six months of sobriety I had written 6 or 8 notebooks worth. Needless to say I had a lot of anger issues. But finally I was able to do a fifth step.
I didn’t have any desire to drink, but the depression persisted. I found that I would not eat and then I would get depressed and angry.

I have found that I am not tempted to drink the way I was when I was drinking for some reason. It may be as they say in the B9i

I think I’ve made some progress over the years on this. BUT from time to time I’ll see a glass of wine or something and I’ll think that might be nice. Then I remember as you wrote about where this goes and what would happen to me if I had that drink. I really worry that I wouldn’t be able to come back in the rooms. I worry way too much about saving my face and not saving my ass. That’s why I have done what is suggested to me from the start. I know how low I was and I just don’t want to go back there. I’m not temped to drink from a taste point of few it’s just that there is something attractive in that glass. I always take this attraction for a sign that things are not right in my life and I better do a tenth step and figure out what is going on.